Some people grow up thinking, "I can't wait to be a vet, a doctor, a lawyer, a chef...". I have ALWAYS wanted to just be a mom. Even when thinking about my "career" I decided to go with child development/early childhood education as my degree. I have just always loved kiddos, especially the babies!
Since the birth of my sweet Natalee Grace, my heart has no longer been with other children, it has been with her! I left the 5 year old classroom when I did return back to work to move into the baby room to be with her. I am so thankful that this got to happen, otherwise, I am not sure how I would have coped. It may sound silly to some, but I just can't picture not being the one there for her: to teach her things, to help her with things, to sing to her, to rock her...that IS my job. After her 1st birthday, I wanted to move into the one year old room with her, but I just knew that was not going to happen. After many (tearful) days, I had decided I just needed to get used to the idea of her moving up without me. God, however, was there for me once again. One of the one year old teachers moved away, and a spot became open in that classroom. YAY! God helped solve the situation again! I moved into the one year old classroom, and all was well! :) For about the last 8 months, I have really struggled with not wanting to work. I became very negative with my job and with the people in authority.
All the meanwhile, I was contacted about putting my girly stuff in the new floral shop in Dalhart. I have been doing this since August, and I LOVE it! Right up my alley, and SO much fun! I decided to expand my business even more and get a facebook business page. Overnight, it seemed, there were orders coming in left, right, up and down! I was way overbooked...which is a good problem to have! This then lead me to my current situation. I decided to work from home on my BOWtique stuff and stay home with Natalee.
Is this a big leap of faith? YES. Do we "have the money" to cover things that need to be covered? BARELY. Is it in my nature to be this unplanned? NO. Has my God ever failed us? NO.
We may not have everything we need and definitely not everything we want, but great sacrifices sometimes have to be made to achieve the things in life you want. I can not be more happy with my decision, and I am so glad that I have an AMAZing husband, family and friends there to support me through this time. I am so at peace with all of this. I am so thankful for all of this. THIS is my dream...and I am glad I am living it. Now...to add some more babies to my list...that's a whole other blog!
"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." Hebrews 11:1
|Natalee and I at the BR Rodeo!|
|Natalee and I last New Year's Eve!|
|Natalee and I making snow ice cream!|
|Natalee and I at Jump-N-Jive|
|Natalee and I on my birthday this year!|